flowersIntheWindow

Wednesday, March 21, 2007,10:20 PM

i find this to be rather disturbing, if u ask me, writin an essay have become a chore instead....i used to write hassle - free , words flowing out nowhere and pen them down with no problems wotsoever... yet, now, im tryin to gripe for the better and proper werd , getting all vexed up fr no reasons.... all the creative juices seems to run dry ..... i blame it solely on my big fat lazy bum .... or more on my blardy procrastinate-like-no-tmr idling brain.... i cum to a blank page...and i leave it blank..wondering what else can i relate from today ....wot else can be said....so instead of puttin in another 1% extra of hard werk into tinkin...i give up and presume... ohh not to werri , i'll write tmr ..... sheez .. and how i reckon i'll even cum close to doin well in my essay today.... i shld count myself lucky if i can sum up words of 250 even on the page u noe......but ere i am railing at my own actions .... yet deep deep ...even deeper down, there a tiny weeny drop of lite i called it the light of optimism....awaiting and hoping that wotever topic my dear lecturer decided to put out for today 2 hours paper...let it be sumthing i can safely say ..ive done dat .. and not merely rambling over sumting that i dun noe nutin about ... hell if i do tat ... its like swimmin in a sea of sharks mayne...not safe at all...but im certain ( or more of hopin), i'll be fine...well tats wot i tell myself constantlywish me luck!

Wednesday, March 14, 2007,11:50 PM

u noe wot dame. sumtimes i reckon instead of questionin and tryin to find some solid reasons to justify any of these and even denial itself would prove to be infuriating at the end of the day... so in all these years i been smart enough to ignore the Obvious questions and jz leave them lingering with their own thots and pursue for wotever conclusion they choose to make... if u ask me... im tellin u .. i cldnt care less
u jz cldnt help it dame.... no matter hw teeny weeny small a community might be .. there ought to be at least one who lives their daily life pursuing instead of other personal life ... if they tink they have a life by doin wotever they are doin ... i suggest they retink ...
i had my fair share of cant-avoid-qns-but-have-to-be-respectful-towards-elders. 5 years ago ..they would ask if im attached and if i wasnt God forbids (for them), they would wonder relentlessly how so ....then two years ago ... another major issue struck this annoyin ppl, wen u tink ur gonna settle down hehehe and settled down , i did.... and now.... now...now.....u reckon u mite be pregnant?... they gotta stop it dame...not onli are they tryin to trip the very last nerve i ave....they jz gotta leave me be....
on a happy note.....im enjoyin skool(though im dreadfully tired)and i miss my sweetheart!

its been a while and i miss writing :)