Tuesday, May 09, 2006,6:31 PM
Sumtyms it feels lyk as if der isn't enuf in my life to add on to the many cliche issues tat coulda happen to any other 23 (almost 23) year olds….i beg to differ, mind u, im exhausted and im amaze by the very fact tat Ive yet to even cum close to breakin down , u noe?... Ppl ard u whom u seeked in ur ups and downs sumtimes seems to fail u... Dun let me get started on the obvious souls dat are attached to u genetically yet the least concern of these issues dat seem to trouble u ... im amazed by the fact tat there are ppl who lived through their lives with so much conviction dat I myself cant simply bring myself to… im ashamed of myself... I cant even seem to decide if I wanna pursue the one ting I dreamed bout doin all my life...Just bcoz sumone ego-centric being ave obviously been challenged and to accept defeat would only mean swallowing my bloody pride yet on the contrary given the opportunity to pursue for a dream I longed...Queer! Irony!
This is the major irony of my life ... this perpetual idiosyncrasies ave to take an exit real soon before I lose my sanity to life itself. Sheez I could not even recall the countless times Ive claimed to be burned out ….
Im just weary dame...feels like 1001 tings just hit u strait on and ur left grappling for space(and air!) to tink bout wot u wanna do next , u noe?
*she cried herself to sleep, she close her eyes, and when she wakes up, its morning.......