flowersIntheWindow

Wednesday, May 25, 2005,5:24 PM

well yest is me sweetheart bdae...im glad dat he like wotever i bought him damon..... well it was realli nutin and base of all hes happi and dats wots impt aite?

hmmm i cant help it dammy.... every time i glance over my old peepz i cant help bt seems to see an obvious line dat seperates us and dey reflect wot i was and certainly not wot i am now.... aye

for certain tings ave remained wot dey were n ive been the one dat ave evaporate out of tat familiar spot.... lost and lookin for sumtin else and sumone else

and for sum strange reason im lucky to ave met my dearie...

i dunno wot it is im blabberin to tink bout it ....

Thursday, May 19, 2005,12:25 AM

so dearie dammy

im waitin to get home... ive done all my werk oops i forgot one... i check on dis later... so the bugger(me for the record) ave decided to rekindled her lost ties wif her frens all of a sudden .... hmm dun ask me why... jz suddenly feel and wondered where dey ave been or more of where i
ave been forget bout it.... i reckon i wnt deny the fact tat ive been keepin myself away for too long aite?

need to get away frm dat area of familiarity and ave a peace of mind...met sumone new and he became familiar and did and still does gives me dat peace of mind.....

i reckon its nt rekindled... jz wot ppl kol as gettin together well i define it as catchin up heheheh

i suppose the next step to a big dried up career isnt as easy and sassy as it sounds aye?
tell me bout it.... big break .... its der ... jz need to hang in der....:p

smile for me dear:p

Tuesday, May 17, 2005,10:02 PM

ave i decided to name u damon?

well pakcik dun ask y... my old journal was damon so forget bout it....well aside the fact im feelin rather bummed.... not onli for the fact im jz a lil affected by yest bt the usual damon i ave a million tots cloudin my impecabbly small mind.... its a no wonder ppl ave either refered to me as naive, ignorant or jz pure stupidity.....

it is true aint it wen i try to comprehend sumtin beyond my ability wich is pure preposterousness...he alwiz tell me to take tings one at a time... nevertheless... its more frustrating to be in a position wen ur reprimanded for a certain action and feelin all shit and all aite onli to realise dat wen u do talk bout dis ...instead of sayin sumtin to at least acknowledge his presence during the act caught red handed... he single handed ly jz agree wif em instead... wot kinda irony and insult is dis?

and den u cum to a poitn whereby there jz tings dat are within reach yet so far away and tings dat u tink are within ur reach welll whadya noe... they are rite there for u to jz grab them aite?

i hope dat my dreams of him cum true sum dae.....

queer dat u can be missin and adorin sumone so much yet at the same bear so much frustration against him?

hmm another kinda paradox of life not worth tinkin since trust me ... its jz purely infinity and leads u nowhere

er@in